Simplify and Soften
I recently read a quote that perfectly described my current state of mind. It was something like ‘when a snake sheds a layer of skin there is a period of time when the skin is over its eyes, and its vision is skewed. Once the skin is completely shed, however, clarity returns.’
Don’t worry, I’m not getting all Animorphs on you, but I have certainly felt like that snake over and over again for the past few months. I am wrapping up my undergraduate degree, I have been given a taste of what its like to work a real job, and have been uncovering layers of myself that I didn’t know existed through my yoga teacher training. Mentally perplexing concepts of the fragility of life, death, love, and accepting the fact that my pants are fitting tighter bring out that ‘monkey mind‘ feeling.
I apologize for all the animal metaphors, but I think they’re the best way of describing what I have been constantly thinking and feeling. I think its why I have come to love my ‘technology detox Sundays‘ so much; they give me permission to just shut off the constant chatter. When the power goes out I rejoice, because it means I can enjoy my book distraction-free by the candlelight (mind you, I do miss my cup of tea when this happens ).
Writing HV has been an amazing, challenging, and enlightening experience, and I don’t regret it one bit. I have loved playing around with my camera, spending time in the kitchen, and meeting blends. It’s still a lot of work though, and with life being so busy the past few months it has been challenging to keep up.
So now that the metaphorical snake skin has moved over my eyes I am starting to see where I need to make a few changes for the sake of my sanity. To me, simplifying means being okay with unplugging more often that once a week. It means being more concise and thoughtful, and embracing my more minimalist approach to life. Softening means not trying to hard that I become rough around the edges, and not worrying so much with others think. It means being more gentle with my actions and words, and to stop forcing thing like going for a run or writing a blog post when I’m just not feeling it.
I can’t say for sure that this is a solution, but I hope it helps to blow me in the right direction. The next few months signal a big transition for me (hello, real world!) and hopefully throughout simplifying and softening I can take life as it comes with more ease. I hope you will stick with me through this, because I love having friends along for the ride